Bobby..does this sound familiar? "We are supposed to go out at the beginning of the year, but i gotta find a reason not to."
ive been told by a couple people they heard that come out of your mouth at molly's party..once again you lie. wow what a jerky thing to say..its ok i dont wanna go back out with you anyway.
scratch all that.
im tired of holding my feelings in because im afraid of hurting other people..well guess what? they didnt care about how all that would effect me so i had a change of heart.
For all those who asked if me and bobby broke up and didnt get an answer..well its not that i have a problem with telling people i just find it completely annoying to continue repeating myself.
"When you love somebody but it goes to waste..could it e worth it?"
God im spending the weekend in a hell hole starting today..thats right we are coming back to indy for a couple of days. darn. Im so sick of that gay state.
Thank god we can leave tuesday to come back, the sooner the better.
Bobby as much as im hurt by you, and unlike you im not afraid to show my true emotions..i will thank you, for helping me realize the most important thing, i want a guy who wont let things get in the way, who will do sweet things to show they care, who will talk to me whenever its needed, and who can be there for me and give me advice..i want someone who loves me for me, and im not afraid to open up to, i want someone who sets me aside from the rest, i want someone who makes me feel special.
This week has helped me realize things like that especially with the help of lucy.
I am pissed, upset, happy, hilarious, and craving fun right now. Pretty twisted huh?
One more thing Bobby, you lied to me ok, and i wont talk to you in person because i know you wont listen to me. You told me you still cared..how was that shown, you told me you still loved me, so you freakin forget everything..perfect example of the perfect guy. I'm sick of it, i saw past every flaw, i was there through thick and thin, i tried my hardest to make you happy 24/7, and i pretty much did everything you asked..so where exactly did i go wrong..well the answer is..i didnt. i did everything right, you just didnt wanna be there when things got hard, and you didnt wanna work at them.
you can be pissed at me for doing this on the computer, but if i would have said it to you in person, you wouldnt have listened anyway.
I hope you're happy, i sure am.
Well guys i appreciate all the support and talks. I'm pretty much where i want to be.
See you guys when we get back ..
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